The pandemic affected our participants’ lives in ways that shaped their perspectives on mental health issues. Changes in what was previously normal with family, education, and social routines dampened emotions and resulted in three major categories related to mental health: (1) experiences of mental health decline, (2) changing perspectives and ruminations about the future, and (3) adapting to the pandemic’s impact. The students identified occurrences of anxiety, depression, and stress during the pandemic as they made adjustments to their everyday routines. For some, struggles with mental health were new, while for others, the pandemic exacerbated pre-existing mental health conditions. Concerns about COVID-19 infection and its potential short- and long-term health consequences were widely discussed. Beyond their own social world, participants expressed concerns about the pandemic’s possible implications on social and political strife and how these might affect society as a whole. Through this lens, they discussed worries about future career, economic, and higher education opportunities. In response to dealing with these personal and social impacts, participants reported a variety of response mechanisms that they employed to deal with the pandemic worries while being intentional about maintaining optimal mental health despite the challenging context.
3.1. “This Year Has Tested My Mental Health”
The COVID-19 pandemic presented a new set of challenges and stressors for college students. Campus closures and return to family homes meant that social activities were few or absent for most students. Still, students had to keep up with school demands virtually, a feat that required extensive efforts to manage and accommodate academic work in non-academic environments. At the same time, public health recommendations for reducing social interaction to reduce transmission led to students feeling isolated and limited in their college experience. Our participants universally discussed mental health declines and identified specific incidents of stress, anxiety, loneliness, and depression citing the pandemic as having had a significant impact on their mental health.
Students experienced attending to the new social and academic landscape as stressful. Thriving during the pandemic presented unique challenges making academics and everyday activities a constant source of stress. Jeff, a White, LGBTQ student, bemoaned these issues.
Um, I definitely would say that this year has tested my mental health. If I had to compare it to all my other years of college, it would be the worst year. I know there are resources out there available to me, but I feel like everyone just kind of plays it off like, ‘Oh, it’s the pandemic’ so I’m just trying to push through and graduate. I have 5 weeks now of this semester but a big toll on my mental health has been because of my work. And, because my work has been completely altered by COVID. I used to love my job, going there almost every single day and now it’s just stressful. The turnover because of COVID has increased so it’s more job responsibilities on myself.
Even activities that Jeff loved or experienced as joyful prior to the pandemic led to stress and discontent.
Anxiety was raised in relation to everyday life activities, family, and academic work. Natasha who identifies as a White, LGBTQ student shared, “[the pandemic] taught me that I am susceptible to anxiety. I never really felt anxiety like that, kind of like a pervasive anxiety, from COVID. And I’ve had lots of drama and trauma in my life, but it was a different kind of worry and anxiety that wasn’t healthy.” Experiences of anxiety were reported in relation to potential exposure to COVID-19 as the interviewers were occurring at a time when there were many reports of severe illness and death resulting from COVID-19 infection and regular reports of cases on campus.
A number of our participants expressed a strong desire to stay healthy during the pandemic and dreaded the thought of possible infection resulting from exposure to COVID-19. Kelley, a White LGBTQ student, highlighted this sentiment. She said she was aware of her, “mental health, [I have] a lot more anxiety. But [my] physical health is mostly the same. Yeah, definitely increased anxiety from not wanting to get sick. Or if I did get sick, worrying that it was COVID. So that was the biggest mental health thing.” Anxiety for these students influenced how they went about their ‘normal’ life activities. COVID-related anxiety was pervasive and felt uncharacteristic for many of the students who experienced this anxiety.
Social isolation was a key factor in deteriorating mood impacting feelings of loneliness and depression; our participants struggled to maintain optimal mental health in the absence of the social and community experiences associated with higher education. Students connected loneliness to mental health decline. Benjamin a non-White male student said, “At times, I would say that it [my mental health] declined just because I’ve felt lonely.” Jasmine, a White female, LGBTQ student, shared similar experiences, and as the pandemic progressed, her mental health decline intensified. She stated, “it’s now been kind of bumpy because I’m getting to the point where I’m more burnt out on the pandemic, and just sick and tired of spending so much time by myself in my apartment.” This sense of social isolation and loneliness may have facilitated lowered transmission, but the cost was the mental well-being of students like Jasmine and Benjamin. Noah, a non-White male student, shared his experiences, remarking, “And [the pandemic has] led to me like, just like staying in my room, and staying in my room like one place that’s made me sometimes like, in a depressed mood. Um, definitely more prone to depressing episodes.” Suggesting that isolation was not just experienced as episodes of loneliness, but also of feeling depressed.
While some students were able to manage depressive episodes with physical exercise or other positive coping strategies, the proximity to COVID infection and deaths, and well as the multiple waves of the pandemic meant that many students cycled into and out of depressed states and some managed their feelings with less ideal coping strategies. Jasmine a White, LGBTQ student noted that.
In general, and this is something I have personally noticed, is, a lot of people’s, like, substance abuse—well, substance use, I should say, use, not abuse—use has gone up significantly throughout all of this. And I personally can attest, I’m smoking a lot more weed than I should be, probably, and drinking and stuff, because it’s—you know, you’re burnt out, and you’re exhausted. And I’m seeing that trend a lot with, just, people in general. And especially with college students, because you already have that culture where a lot of that is accepted.
For some students managing pandemic challenges led to new experiences of burnout and mental health decline. For a number of our respondents with preexisting mental health conditions, however, the pandemic aggravated their existing symptoms or conditions.
For some, their mental health condition worsened to the point where they felt the need to seek additional professional help. Kalia a White, LGBTQ student emphasized her experience with mental health during the pandemic and she recognizes the role of the pandemic in her remarks “[My] mental health definitely went down. I actually got a therapist a few months ago. I don’t think it was onset from COVID-related things, but COVID is another layer of problematic things, you know?” She did not ascribe COVID as the cause of her mental health condition but did feel it contributed to her need for a therapist’s help.
One respondent experienced a relapse of a mental health condition she had been successfully managing. Rebecca, a White female student, shared her experiences with the pandemic’s impact on her depression, “God, it’s [COVID] changed everything. I mean, you listed quite a long list there. Where should I start? My mental health has taken a big hit. I was diagnosed with depression probably three or four years ago when I was on vacation. I’m actually going to get back into therapy.” Rebecca’s comments highlight how the COVID-19 pandemic had aggravated pre-existing mental health problems.
Social seclusion and distancing that were common in the first year of the pandemic proved particularly difficult for individuals with pre-existing mental health challenges. For Lloyd, a White, LGBTQ student loneliness during the pandemic was a precursor to depression episodes. While he had been dealing with depression prior to the pandemic, his symptoms worsened increasing his medication needs.
Yeah, I would say in that kind of isolation, I have been more depressed. I started seeing a therapist again recently, which I had done prior. And I’m also on SSRIs, so selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors, so I have been put on them in increasingly higher dosages since COVID and I have only started on them in COVID, so last fall is when I started that medication, so a definite decline in mental health following COVID, not that I had great mental health before, but some of my predilections towards anxiety and depression increased during COVID.
As evidenced above, the pandemic took its toll on college students whether they had pre-existing conditions or not, students experience a variety of negative mental health consequences related to fear, isolation, and missing out on a ‘normal’ college experience.
3.2. Sensemaking: Changing Perspectives
For many students, the pandemic experience involved more than just mental health symptoms; it also affected how they viewed the world. Respondents noted that the COVID-19 pandemic had uncovered vast differences in personal, religious, and political beliefs leading to worries about their own futures in terms of ways the pandemic could impact their academic goals, career path, and employment opportunities. While some of our participants did not identify these concerns as mental health issues and hence did not discuss them in relation to stress, anxiety, loneliness, or depression, all narratives that mentioned these issues offered insights into the emotional landscapes experienced as the pandemic progressed.
Participants expressed worries about the implications of the COVID-19 outbreak on societal norms and values. Due to conflicting beliefs and perceptions around COVID-19, public emotional flares had not been uncommon. These experiences contributed to emotional dampening and were a source of concern during the pandemic. Martin, a non-White male student, considers the pandemic’s impact on societal values his “biggest worry” and explains how he feels about the situation.
I think my biggest worry is how we’re going to get back to what is normal. I personally feel like people have overreacted, and then there are people who have underreacted to it. So, I think that my biggest issue is that, as a society, we aren’t able to find a common ground or whatever on how to get back to what’s normal.
Jimmy, another non-White male student, explained similar concerns about the strains on normality and interpersonal relations in public spaces.
I think more of not COVID itself but you know you see in a society where people are like extreme on wearing PPE and social distancing. Even here in the clinic, we have had patients get very aggressive. People out there trying to be a little too cautious and therefore they are getting aggressive. You see it at the stores and people call the cops on people. I have not personally seen that. That is my only concern. Eventually one day we have a lot of people out there upset because they are not doing what someone else expects them to do. That wasn’t a big deal before. No one ever yelled at you if you had a runny nose and you weren’t wearing a mask.
Students expressed concern about other tears in the social fabric. Rebecca, a White female student, shared fears for altered family and job situations and she shared her thoughts with the following remarks, “I worry about people who have lost their jobs, people who are struggling to feed their families, people who are on the brink of getting evicted, losing their homes. There are so many things.”
The uncertainties and concerns went beyond what had already occurred to worries about changes in future opportunities for education, career fulfillment, and employment. Our participants believed that the economic downturn associated with the COVID-19 outbreak could have dire consequences on future aspirations which made students feel more stressed during the pandemic.
Janelle, a non-White female student, shared her thoughts about the abrupt disruption in opportunities for students to gather necessary experiences as they prepare for various career trajectories.
But yeah, I guess the biggest worry is worrying about these consequences whether it’s within this college or within the country, the world, whatever, in the future because a lot of students, especially in STEM fields who want to get into labs, people want to try to get experience before they go to med school or whatever they’re doing are stopped because they can’t get into labs. So, I really worry about the future in terms of career goals and stuff like that.
Even though the transition to online learning was a success, students pursuing academic fields that require in-person training missed out on key experiences. Shawn, a non-White, non-binary student went further by citing their experiences as they felt that the COVID-19 disruptions could delay his academic goals.
I’m worried that with COVID, I haven’t [had a chance to do] as much research as I would have previously which might affect my graduate school application. I might—in the past couple of weeks, I’ve been thinking what if I take another year after graduation to do more research instead of going straight to graduate school. But my career goals are still the same. I want to grad school, and I want to do research.
In addition to fears about careers and furthering their education, participants expressed a general feeling of uncertainty about the future. Not knowing what to expect was particularly uncomfortable. Grace, White female student, articulated this discomfort in this way.
I feel like in general, just how it’s going to impact our country and world. Also, jobs I feel like it’s going to impact because I know so many people have already lost their jobs. So, just how it’s going to change that and just change our dynamic in the world, in general, is a big fear of mine.
For our participants, uncertainty, and apprehension about the future intertwined with their experience of the COVID-19 pandemic. While uncertainty about the future may be common at this stage of the life course, in Spring 2021 this uncertainty was connected with negative emotions (fear, worry) that were also linked with negative mental health outcomes [
27]. While these impacts were real, students also highlighted their agency in coping with these new burdens.
3.3. Adapting to the Pandemic’s Impact
Some of our conversations with participants revealed a sense of adaptation rather than helplessness. Despite the challenges to goal achievement posed by social isolation, individuals enacted practices to address the emotional slump associated with the pandemic. Coping strategies included actively taking control of their lives or more passively engaging in optimism; most students used a combination of active and passive strategies.
3.3.1. Actively Taking Back Control
The pandemic increased the visibility and awareness of mental health issues making students feel that it was more acceptable to discuss mental health and do something about it. Students took agency to manage their mental health in a number of forms: professional care including therapy, courses, and medication, as well as building community online and in-person.
According to some participants, the decision to seek mental health care was motivated by how the pandemic itself had contributed to mental health declines. Some students noted this was their first time seeking formal mental health care. Ana, a non-White female student, shared her experiences with the following remarks.
In terms of anxiety though, I’d say that COVID has made me more willing to seek out help because it’s more normalized, I guess? So, I did take an [anti-] anxiety course through the counseling center, back when I was rooming with the girl who didn’t care about COVID, and that was one of my biggest sources of anxiety. I do have a generalized anxiety disorder, and my workload is a huge contributor, but COVID is also a big part of it. Just struggling to fit in and make friends on campus when I care a lot. So I took that course and then this semester I actually reached out to a psychiatrist and got medicated for anxiety for the first time and that’s been beneficial to me as well.
While Kalia believed that the pandemic exacerbated rather than was the source of her mental health decline, the additional ‘layer’ led her to seek help, “Yeah. Mental health definitely went down. I actually got a therapist a few months ago. I don’t think it was onset from COVID-related things, but COVID is another layer of problematic things, you know?”
Kelley outlined her coping process in this way, “I did take strides to help myself. I went to group therapy and didn’t let myself just sit at the computer all day long. I at least got up and I did something else in the apartment. I think it kind of helped me there not get into a depression.” As mental health therapy services were offered virtually, participants also took advantage of this opportunity. For Janelle, virtual therapy visits were not something she had done before the pandemic but were an integral part of her path to taking back control of her mental health,”… I see a therapist virtually, and I started seeing her in June of 2020. I haven’t stepped foot in the office ever. I’ve only known her for this computer screen. That was something that was interesting because I’m not used to seeing therapists on the computer screens, it’s usually in person.” The availability of both in-person and virtual services was vital for college students. Even though some had not used such services before, each of these students took action to seek care to address what they saw as declining mental health related to the pandemic.
Forming, maintaining, and leaning on social communities was another common coping strategy among our participants. These virtual or in-person communities provided needed social interaction and social support.
In some instances, these communities were achieved virtually via cooperative activities such as video gaming. Lucas, a non-White male student, disclosed his ADHD made social isolation particularly challenging; he found, however, that online video gaming provided him with needed social interaction, but also not having to just sit still.
Hell, yeah. I’d say it’s difficult, to say the least because I’m registered through the disability center. I have moderate to severe ADHD. I feel like it’s a need for me to go out and move. It’s really hard for me to sit down. So, I’ve just found different things like—I don’t know. One of the necessities I made when we first came up here with my brothers was everybody had some type of Playstation so we could talk to each other through the headset. We could play with each other. It was some type of indirect social interaction. I’d make sure I talked to my brothers, I talked to my older sisters, all through kind of that. And it was just a way to keep my hands busy because I really can’t go outside and get my own body energy out of there.
Alex, a non-White male student, reported similar practices, “Another thing is how much more we use virtual sources, for example, now whenever my friends can’t really hang out, like my friend group, we’ll go on Discord, and we’ll all be playing video games together, but separately.”
Other participants opted for in-person social communities including friends with whom they share similar health and behavioral attributes. Students formed social “bubbles” where they interacted with a small designated group of friends. While social “bubbling” was not a perfect COVID-19 prevention practice, was a good risk mitigation strategy that reduced the chance of transmission while allowing for social interaction with a select group to reduce the adverse consequences of loneliness among members. Social “bubbling” also provided some form of accountability towards observing infection prevention practices since members would not want to risk exposing others through negligence. Janelle described her bubble in this way.
It’s just me and like two or three friends. And it’s us together in general. And so, we were bubbling before bubbling was cool and everything. And so, we still keep ourselves safe. And we’re all scientists so we believe and listen to what’s going on. We’re not going to bars and we’re not doing anything like that… My friends are the ones that are keeping me sane. Us, each other, we’re kind of there for each other and keep each other grounded and not have cabin fever or whatever.
Noah described a similar situation, “But uhh, in the beginning, like, the pandemic was like, really scary, and like I wasn’t seeing any of my friends, but I had like this small bubble, and all of my friends have just been hanging out inside that small bubble of like, like, 4 to 7 people. So like, a decent amount, but those are the only people that I’m not social distancing with.” This active risk mitigation strategy allowed students to have social interaction to address mental health needs while limiting COVID exposure.
3.3.2. Optimism as a Form of Coping
As the pandemic progressed, students felt it was increasingly doubtful that things will be returning to “normal” soon. And yet, a sense of optimism and hope was a major source of comfort for many of our participants. Optimism and hope were spurred by news of COVID-19 vaccine approval and availability, but also by a desire to stay positive in a difficult situation. Alex expressed his thoughts on this “I think America is hopefully close to the end of the tunnel here. I’m seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, but I don’t know if that’s accurate or not”.
COVID-19 vaccines represented a major source of hope and optimism about the pandemic’s end for a certain group of students. Since vaccines prevent infection and reduce transmission of infectious diseases, it was not surprising that college students viewed vaccine availability as a major breakthrough in the pandemic. Courtney explained her perspective, “But, I think, overall, there’s still a lot of hope. Especially with the vaccine coming out and that kind of thing. I think—especially with my friends. We’re just counting down the days and just hoping that soon, it’ll all just slowly start going back to normal I think.” Kalia was lucky to have been among the first groups of individuals eligible for the vaccines, “But, I got the first vaccine, and that has definitely brought down some anxiety about it.” For her, receipt of her first vaccine dose played a crucial role in reducing anxiety about possible COVID-19 exposure.
When asked about thoughts on the future and whether they felt worried, rather than focusing on the challenges, some students felt COVID-19 was providing them with lessons and preparing them for the future. Noah shared his belief that the COVID-19 pandemic was preparing the world to combat potentially more fatal health challenges later, “Um, not really. I’m actually pretty optimistic about the future because I think that while COVID-19 was bad, it was honestly like, one of the best-case scenarios for global pandemics. And I think that this would, this will shock people enough to be prepared for a worse epidemic in the future.” He went on to highlight the ways pandemic health and workplace practices have ingrained important lessons.
I think that masks will be more common when people are sick for anything. I am looking forward to that. And I think that there will be less pressure for people to come to work when they have like the flu or something, I think people would be more conscientious about illnesses and contagion. So my outlook on the future is very optimistic, and that might be naive, but I can hope.
Even though little was known about the effectiveness of the vaccine at the time of our study, optimism among our participants allowed students to feel hopeful about better conditions in the future, which may have protected them against some of the negative mental health effects of the pandemic.